The biggest challenge for me this year was an illness and everything that surrounds that. Whatever it is (as it is still undiagnosed), I spend a lot if my life tired, with migraines, physical pain. It has left me out for the count most days. In many ways it angers me how much of life I lose because of this. Moments full of joy with the babes. Time with friends. Mostly, it has left me feeling very unsupported and surrounded by a lack of understanding. It hurts when people don't check in on you, ask how you are doing or consider it an excuse to avoid social outings. Unfortunately, I feel like friends have slipped away. In this time I know it is important to be strong and positive and I am so fortunate to the Papa for understanding, helping and loving and to those few who do ask how things are.
most days I feel like a shell of my former energetic, artistic and athletic self. But this year I plan to "Do Something".
This year I am embarking on a personal project, not encouraged or inspired by others or a desire to fill blog posts. It is a project that I hope will lift my spirits and help me find balance and happiness. I call it Do Something.
Each and every day I am going to do something: baking, designing, art, walking, reading, SOMETHING.
It is a test to myself to push through the physical pain and lethargy to regain spiritual happiness. In the near future, I am positive that me and my health care providers will discover the root of my issues but I cannot stand the anguish of waiting. So to 2014...my year of doing something.
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